What I Didn't Tell Them

So Michael and Andrew were in the car yesterday talking about 'lost loves'. They went on and on about the person they had love (different person for each of course) and how said person broke their heart. I was depressed yesterday so I just listened and didn't say anything. It's not like I can participate can I? I never had a guy break my heart, I never fell in love. I wouldn't understand it.
They got quiet just before we got to Andrew's house to drop them off, and what I wanted to say, I kept to myself. I didn't tell them that whenever I found myself fantasizing about a guy that wasn't imaginary, I worked damn hard to get that person in the 'just friends' spot. I may have never fallen in love, but I've had my heart broken.
I'm not going to go into the whole 'poor me, my parents divorced' thing, but they did divorce, and it did break my heart.
I want more than anything (almost) to fall in love and get married, but I don't see it happening. I never want to experience that feeling again. It hurts like hell.
So what I didn't tell them was; "I don't fall in love, because I've felt the impact of finally hitting the ground, and I don't want to experience it again."