So my friend, one of the best in the world is going through a divorce (her parent's divorce). Divorce just sucks with a capital S-U-C-K-S. She isn't the kind of person to...relay her feelings, but she's not talking to her dad. They keep telling me not to get involved. "Don't push her." "It's her choice" "Just try to stay out of it."
I know they're probably right, that it's not something I should really get involved in, but I just see what she's going through and have a major flashback on the worst time of my life. I can't just let her go through even a small portion of what I had to go through. I'm not going to pretend I know it hurts more when you're young and you don't understand because I don't think that's true at all. It hurts no matter what, who cares who hurts more?
She's not speaking to him, she's so angry with him. I remember not shutting up, I remember screaming at him, I remember my heart breaking every time we fought. I remember not trusting him, being so hurt, being so furious, hating him for what he did. I remember looking for a fight in everything and how much it fucking hurt.
She's not screaming, she's not crying, she's probably not even really hating him, but she's angry and I don't want her to have to go through all of that. I don't want the divorce to ruin their relationship.
God I wish I could have prevented her heartbreak. I'm no psychologist, but I think that's part of the reason I always put guys under the 'friend' label. That way, even if we date and break up, they never had my heart and I can get over it no worse for ware. I wish I could stop doing it, I wish it would hurt sometimes, but it never really does.
That's not the point right now, we can talk about how screwed up I am (psychologically of course) some other time. Right now I wanna know how to keep her from going through any more of it.
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